A window

By: theintrovertedtree 25th Feb 202125th Feb 2021 Philosophy, PsychologyInbetweenness, Non-action, Reflection, Soul searching, WaitingLeave a Comment

The music of Philip Glass makes me feel at home. Apparently flat but deeply mysterious. The nuances of repetition. Change in no change. Peaceful and yet disquiet. A tension of opposites. Quiet and yet so loud. An inbetweenness. I often dream of windows through which I get ‘to the other side’, usually some sort of…

On doing nothing

By: theintrovertedtree 16th Feb 2021 Philosophy, PsychologyAcceptance, Doing nothing, Non-action, Self discovery, Soul searching, Stop trying, Waiting2 Comments

I recently finished watching the fourth season of The Crown. Throughout the series, the characters explain how the Crown and the elected Government represent the two sides of power. One side that is changeable, works hands-on, gets dirty and suffers the blame, and another side that is eternal, idealised, immaculate, almost magical. There comes a…

The Void

By: theintrovertedtree 9th Feb 20219th Feb 2021 PsychologyAcceptance, Emptyness, Second half of life, Soul searching, Void5 Comments

And who am I? This question fills me with a kind of emptiness, as if highlighting what’s missing, rather than what’s present. The void. The nothingness that accompanies the lack of answers. The void has been with me since my early childhood, draining energy, will, and light. I tried to escape from it, to bury…

Clones

By: theintrovertedtree 2nd Feb 20219th Feb 2021 Philosophy, PsychologyIndividuality, Life cycles, Personal ideas, Soul searching, Uniqueness4 Comments

Am I unique? Am I not repeating the pattern of so many human beings before me? Haven’t I been ‘me’ before, in another one? Am I the first of my kind? Don’t I make the same mistakes as that who was like me? Won’t another come later who will be like ‘me’, with my same…

The living doubt

By: theintrovertedtree 26th Jan 2021 Philosophy, PsychologyDoubt, End of the rainbow, Fundamental questions, Search, Soul searching9 Comments

I see all these people with strong opinions. As if they were experts in medicine, virology, immunology, biochemistry, statistics, politics, law, economy and football. I guess strong opinions give them some sense of control over the ever changing reality. A sense that they ‘know’ what is going on around them and hence they can predict…

Searching from

By: theintrovertedtree 18th Jan 20219th Feb 2021 Philosophy, PsychologyInner path, Inner search, Search, Searching, Soul, Soul searching, Wait5 Comments

The other day, it occurred to me that maybe I’m not searching for, but ‘searching from’. I wonder if a search is not a flight. If it is not a statement, a recognition that I don’t want to be ‘here’. A void, silent and permanent. I wonder, once again, if a search is not an…

The blue armour

By: theintrovertedtree 12th Jan 20215th Feb 2021 PsychologyIntellect, Jung, Logic, Logical thinking, Psychological functions, Reason, Thinking function8 Comments

In its blue castle, behind its high blue walls, dressed in its blue gown, Reason is untouchable. It cannot be touched. It is isolated. Alone. Its fear of everything that is not purely logical makes the ego defensive. Reason is most powerful, formidable, and yet the rational ego fears what it cannot understand. It protects…

The untrue steps

By: theintrovertedtree 18th Dec 2020 Philosophy, PsychologyBeing wrong, Growth, Soul searching, Truth9 Comments

Some of the steps on which I base my current view of reality seem false now. But even so, they were necessary to bring me here, to this height. This tread on which I now stand may also be inaccurate or plain wrong, but it is necessary that I step on it to get a…

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I am an INTJ in the second half of my life. I used to think that the second half of life was a cliché. I used to know things. I don’t want to be as pretentious as to say I know nothing, but I certainly know less than I used to and it is a…

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A window

By: theintrovertedtree 25th Feb 202125th Feb 2021

Philosophy, PsychologyInbetweenness, Non-action, Reflection, Soul searching, WaitingLeave a Comment

On doing nothing

By: theintrovertedtree 16th Feb 2021

Philosophy, PsychologyAcceptance, Doing nothing, Non-action, Self discovery, Soul searching, Stop trying, Waiting2 Comments

The Void

By: theintrovertedtree 9th Feb 20219th Feb 2021

PsychologyAcceptance, Emptyness, Second half of life, Soul searching, Void5 Comments

Clones

By: theintrovertedtree 2nd Feb 20219th Feb 2021

Philosophy, PsychologyIndividuality, Life cycles, Personal ideas, Soul searching, Uniqueness4 Comments

The living doubt

By: theintrovertedtree 26th Jan 2021

Philosophy, PsychologyDoubt, End of the rainbow, Fundamental questions, Search, Soul searching9 Comments

Searching from

By: theintrovertedtree 18th Jan 20219th Feb 2021

Philosophy, PsychologyInner path, Inner search, Search, Searching, Soul, Soul searching, Wait5 Comments

The blue armour

By: theintrovertedtree 12th Jan 20215th Feb 2021

PsychologyIntellect, Jung, Logic, Logical thinking, Psychological functions, Reason, Thinking function8 Comments

The untrue steps

By: theintrovertedtree 18th Dec 2020

Philosophy, PsychologyBeing wrong, Growth, Soul searching, Truth9 Comments

How could we not follow our heart

By: theintrovertedtree 14th Dec 2020

PsychologyEmotions, Follow your heart, Happiness, Reward centre3 Comments

I just came across a ‘Follow your heart’ tweet. Seems we can’t have enough of those. Why do we find so attractive the idea of following our heart and, in contrast, we find that following our brain is so uninspiring? We associate the idea of following our heart with freedom, bravery. The heart is always…

The unhappy nonconformist

By: theintrovertedtree 28th Nov 20209th Feb 2021

Philosophy, PsychologyHappiness, Meaning of life, Purpose of life, Quest for meaning, Reward centre, Satisfaction10 Comments

I am thinking of full happiness. Bliss. A state of complete satisfaction and fulfilment. Fulfilment of all aims that were, are and can be. The feeling of arrival, of total accomplishment, the end of the road. Necessarily, the end of new aims that might make us happy. Full happiness, nothing beyond. But that’s not on…