The desireless self

By: theintrovertedtree 21st Jun 2022 Inner search, Philosophy, Waiting and HereMemory, Soul searching, Waiting and Here, WantingLeave a Comment

Ask yourself, “What is the real motive behind everything I do, think, want?” You’ll see that your real desire is to be desireless. Your real desire is peace. Jean Klein, The Ease of Being The main aim of each want is to end the want itself. To be desireless, as Klein says. Once we get…

The watching neighbour

By: theintrovertedtree 7th Jun 2022 Inner search, Psychology, UnconsciousCollective unconscious, oneness, Reality, Unconscious2 Comments

One of the most repeated sentences in my school was “You shall love your neighbour as yourself”. As a child I always thought the difficult part was to love others, taking for granted that I would always love myself. With time I realised that loving oneself was the toughest half of the sentence and an…

The soil, the seed, the gardener

By: theintrovertedtree 11th May 2022 Inner search, Introversion, Psychology, Second half of life, Waiting and HereAcceptance, Openness, Soul searching, Surrender2 Comments

There was a moment a few years ago when I stopped defending from the world. When I understood my aim was not to look for a more appropriate place, different from this one, but to fuse myself with this world to which I belong. To be one with it, accepting life as a permanently changing…

The Glass Bead Game

By: theintrovertedtree 19th Apr 2022 Books, Liminality, Second half of lifeGlass Bead Game, Hermann Hesse, Soul searchingLeave a Comment

(Spoiler alert: do not continue reading if you plan to read the book) In my youth, after reading Hermann Hesse’s Steppenwolf, Demian and Siddhartha, which I loved, I enthusiastically started The Glass Bead Game. I found it incredibly slow and boring. I made two new attempts later, still boring. After re-reading those three books again…

A sack of ideas

By: theintrovertedtree 7th Apr 2022 Inner search, PhilosophyCollective unconscious, Openness, Unconscious2 Comments

In the old days, ideas were regarded to be in an ethereal cloud. Having an idea, being inspired, would be experienced as if one of those drops in the cloud was passing through us. We wouldn’t be the source of the idea, but the channel. How often do we wonder where this or that idea…

The beauty of the empty space

By: theintrovertedtree 22nd Mar 2022 Books, Inner search, Philosophy, Waiting and HereHesse, Projections, Silence, Soul searching, Waiting and Here3 Comments

I have a mug on my desk with blue stars on it. Each star occupies an empty blank space in the shape of a star. Some blank spaces lack their star. I had this silly feeling that those spots had not yet found their match. But then I saw them for what they really are:…

Of course you’re different… but you do belong here

By: theintrovertedtree 15th Mar 2022 Inner search, Liminality, Waiting and HereCollective purpose, Collective unconscious, Death, Evolution, Reality, Soul searching, Waiting and Here3 Comments

I’m a CreepI’m a weirdoWhat the hell am I doin’ hereI don’t belong here Radiohead, Creep For many years I felt like this, in a life that now seems a million years ago, as if I were someone else back then. I felt different from ‘the others’, I wouldn’t fit. I reached the conclusion that…

Ode to being lost

By: theintrovertedtree 9th Mar 2022 Inner search, Unconscious, Waiting and HereBeing open, Not knowing, Soul searching, Unconscious, Unlearning, Waiting and Here2 Comments

We spend most of our life searching, trying to fill the void we are born with. The original sin of the separation of our conscious and unconscious minds. We enter the labyrinth of the million corners, lanes, and fake lights. Just some sugar to get us going until our next ‘discovery’. To no avail. Why…

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I am an INTJ in the second half of my life. I used to think that the second half of life was a cliché. I used to know things. I don’t want to be as pretentious as to say I know nothing, but I certainly know less than I used to and it is a…

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